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Worthy of the Calling Bible Study (Days 1-14)

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She is more precious than jewels, and nothing you desire can compare with her. ~Psalm 3:15

I am about to be as transparent as I can be.  The last year has been rough.  Marriage is hard.  Blending lives is difficult.  Couple that with two demanding jobs, a husband working on his doctorate, a 15 year old boy, growing into a young man, learning to drive and pursuing his dream of baseball.  Non-stop weekends that start on Saturday morning at 5 AM and end Sunday night at 11:59 PM.  You combine it all and Satan has been given an opportunity to dwell around the Hutcheson household.  He has lingered and brought a cloud of negativity like no other.  My children were bickering, my husband and I were in constant disagreement, and illness has plagued our home-me, kids, husband.  To say Satan had a foothold on my life and in our home is an understatement.

At the beginning of October, I was admitted to the hospital.  Prior to being admitted, my  husband and I were on the brink of divorce.  My son was not talking to his father.  My girls were not talking to each other.  Misery and heartache were overshadowing my positive outlook with a darkness and taking over my life.  I was not fun to be around.  I loathed getting up.  I did not care what I looked like or if anyone saw me like that.   My breaking point was reached.

My first night in the hospital was fine.  I was only being monitored.  Then the next day I was told my gall bladder needed to be looked at because I was symptomatic of that.  A day later I found out I was chronic.  My gall bladder was full of stones and suddenly I understood half of the reason I felt the way I did.  Surgery was scheduled and it was the most horrible pain of my life.  I would say worse than childbirth.

20171021_18291859285302.jpgI had too much time in the hospital and at home resting for a total of seven days.  I had to do something so I read books, wrote, jounaled, etc.  In that time I picked up my tablet and started doing a deep dive into a bible study called Worthy of the Calling by Sarah Koontz I had the pleasure of previewing, helping with edits, and launching it.  I never knew this book of the Bible was the RX I needed.  Ephesians!  I have studied it often.  Never like this!

Sarah Koontz has a way with words and explanations that I do not need a Masters of Theology to understand what she is telling me.  I have done Beth Moore and Priscilla Shirer studies spending hours daily studying.  Half the time I missed a lot of the meat of the issue because I just wanted to get through it.  But Sarah only needed 15 minutes of my attention and WOW!  I never knew 15 minutes could make a big difference in my life.  Sarah spoke to me in short emails that spoke to my hardened heart.

When I was given the opportunity to launch her bible study, I had no idea of the impact it would have on my life.  I have read many Christian books and studies but this one study on Ephesians changed me.  For the better.

Sarah’s easy to understand text intertwined with daily activities and the most beautiful freebies I have ever seen created for a study, make this a winner for any woman at any stage of her life.

Day 01 Quote Graphic Ephesians Study

In the last 14 days I have learned that in Christ I am:

  • Chosen in Love to be holy and blameless
    • I am not at fault because Jesus has paid the price for me and my sins
  • Chosen by God to be His daughter; a recipient of His inheritance
    • I am His princess entitled to the riches of His kingdom
  • Forgiven
  • Redeemed
  • A treasured possession
  • Free
  • Defined by God (and ONLY God)
  • Humble

Day 12 Quote Graphic Ephesians StudyThis is a short list of what I have learned in the first 14 days.  By day one I learned that with the first two verses of Ephesians 1:1-2 I AM WORTHY!  I am a faithful servant of Jesus Christ.  I remembered who I am and whose I am.  By day three, my marriage was saved.  My husband and I talked through our issues like never before because my heart was softened.  By day seven, my girls were loving one another and being kind to one another again.   By day fourteen, a father and son finally hugged for the first time in months.  Satan is no longer lingering in our home.     Why?  Because through this study, I found my Christian heart again.  I was reminded of an unconditional love of a father and his daughter.

I never realized how much changes when we truly put God first.  This study has helped me establish good study habits because I could not wait to see what God, through Sarah, would share with me.  I enjoy my Sabbath now with rest and reflection because Sarah stresses this within the study as well.  Whether it was reading my prayer cards or coloring my downloads, I have finally truly learned to rest.

In this study, I have cried tears of sadness, prayed in a different more spirtitual way and let my past go.  I can look myself in the mirror for the first time in a long time and see the woman God created me to be-fearfully and wonderfully made.  I have nothing to be ashamed of because all my trials were the ones He prepared for me.  He knows my story.  He wrote it.  Only He knows the ending.  No matter what path I choose going forward, I know I am Worthy of His Calling on my life.

In September of this year, I would wake up.  Get dressed.  I might brush my hair or I might not.  I would go to work.  Come home. Live in depression and strife.   I, a blessed woman of God, never understood that I am worthy only because He made me.

Today, I woke up blessed and full of His love for me.  I got dressed.  I did my hair.  I put on my makeup and looked in the mirror for the first time in months and said “I am Worthy”.

Thank you, Sarah Koontz!  Because of this study, my family has been saved.  I have come out of the darkness which has brought others in my home out of the darkness.  God is first again.

I cannot wait  to see what else God has in store for me in the next 17 days of walking with Sarah through the rest of Ephesians.

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Our Hearts are Sick when they are burdened with Stress

Nothing rings truer to me right now than this quote.

In the last 14 days I have traveled from Austin to DFW.  I have spent more than 8 nights away from home.  What did I do in that?  I trained over 120 agents on Medicare 101, our call center opportunity, and our clinic initiative. I have attended 2016 Product Rollout Meetings for the multiple carriers we represent.  I have held the hands of about 50 new and existing agents to help them grow their insurance portfolio and their business.  I have done over 20 personal business and strategy meetings with agents one-on-one.  I also have to deal with the political warfare that happens in any corporation.  When you start rising to the top, people try to keep you down.  So I’m constantly trying to overcome the things that are being said and I work three times as hard.

I have also broken bread multiple times with the Executives from these carriers and our offices as well as entertained agent managers for each of these carriers.  When did I sleep?  How many nights was I home?  I counted.  In 14 days, I was home 6 days.  However, even when I was home, I was still plugged in.  I was answering phone calls, text messages and emails.  So in reality I have been gone from my family for 14 days.

Has it caused strained on a new marriage?  HECK YES!

Are my children feeling abandoned?  HECK YES!

I have reached a point in my career that most can only dream of.  I have everything I want professionally.  But personally, I haven’t been able to attend church or our COM group in 14 days.  I am exhausted.  I am tired.  I am weak.  I can hear my body screaming “STOP” My skin is dry, my hair is falling out and my husband and children are miserable!  When I am home and finally have a moment to myself, I want it ALL to myself.

I have become everything I want to be professionally but not who I am personally.  Maintaining the professional life has caused so much stress with travel, a constantly ringing phone and last minute office trips that my heart is sick.  I am sick with stress.  It has taken over my life and it is spilling over into my personal life affecting those I love. I sleep on the couch away from my husband, my son can’t talk to me because I just want to be left alone and my daughter just stays away from me because well in her words “you’re grouchy” And everything they do, annoys me (some of it warranted but most not).

Then one day, I “let it go and let God”.

And Jesus is the eternal healer of hearts

As hard as I work, I do enjoy my job.  I am blessed to lead a small group of women in our Women’s Leadership program.  All 4 women are strong Christian Women of God.  I could not get through my week without these 4 fabulous ladies.  They keep me grounded-in faith, in my work life balance, and in everything I do.  Last week we had a very brief meeting after one of our trainings.  We were chit chatting when one of my agents blew me away.

She said, “Can I pray for you?”

I’m sure I had a shocked look on my face.  And she said again “Myra, honey, you are a newlywed and you look like death warmed over.  You should be on top of the world right now, but you look like the Walking Dead”.

I chuckled.  Then she asked the tough questions “How’s your marriage? How are the kids? When was the last time you ate at home?” Because of the close relationship I have with these women I began tearing up.  Then she started quoting me on some things I have preached to them.  “You must take care of you or you are no good to anyone else-your spouse, your children, or anyone.  You aren’t doing that are you?”

I tried to be strong but I could feel God with his hand on me telling me to let it go.  As much as I wanted to be their leader, I felt God’s hand guiding and I heard this voice saying “open up”.  I broke down for the first time in 14 days.  I let all my worries, all my stress out and laid it all out to this small group of women I lead; this group I trust.  This group of women I’m suppose to be strong for.  These women I am suppose to lead saw me vulnerable for the first time ever.  But then something amazing happened.  As I began talking about my worries, my life stressors something came over everyone and each one of these fabulous women opened up.  None of us had any idea we were each dealing with “things”; with stressors in our lives.  I think we get so stuck in our own world we forget that others deal with stress too.  In this small conference room, 5 women laughed, cried, “let it go” and then closed in prayer.  The stress immediately lifted.

JESUS IS MY HEALER!

I am blessed that God has placed some fabulous Christian brothers and sisters in my work environment.  I am blessed to have children and a husband who love me unconditionally.  But most of all, I am blessed that Jesus is my healer!

God Bless,

Myra 🙂

A Blessed Woman in TX